You matter


Life is useless if there is no one who lives for it.”
For those people who insist on saying that: “Pain is temporary”, I’m sorry to say but I disagree. Pain is something that will make you a different version of yourself. It is something that will make you a much stronger or a much weaker person. It is something that will always remind you of who you were. Indeed, pain will always be a reminder of who you are and what you do. But no matter how vulnerable you are, no matter how tough you are—you are not, never, forgotten. There are a bunch of people who knows you by heart, who loves you in a clever way, who will be crushed to pieces to see you gone. Despite the thoughts of you being alone, of you having no one to run to—I’m telling you, you are never alone. Your smile is never taken for granted by everyone, your woes are heard by two or three and you exist in someone’s life. You matter. No matter how much you hate yourself; there is always someone who loves you unconditionally.
Your laughs, your cries, your butterflies on your stomach, your heartaches, your victory, and your defeat—are what makes you “you”. And you, as a person, are what make this world run. Without you, the world will revise its turns and everything will be changed. So, never ever belittle yourself, never think that you are unworthy because you are a part of this society who continually makes this world a living paradise.
You matter

The Gathering


I am the center of attraction. Everyone I had loved and cared about are either sitting or standing in front of me. I never thought this moment will ever happen. They are silent. Some are just staring at where I am and some are having small talks with the persons next to them. It’s my first time hearing them talk good stuffs about me; my family, my closest friend, and even my acquaintances—this is unbelievable. I remember that I refused to have a party before to celebrate my eighteenth birthday to avoid this too much attention, but now it’s happening.

Everyone laughs when my friends retells the silly things I did before, everyone is reminiscing the old memories we had. Am I supposed to be glad now or not? Everyone went completely silent when they saw my mom walking towards the platform. She is holding a face towel and a folded piece of paper in one hand—guided by my father. She exhaled so deep before finally grabbing the microphone. “I would like to give thanks to everyone who went here, today, you are all gladly appreciated” she stutters.

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The Gathering

This World Is Mad


As I grew older

Everything started to make sense

I slowly becoming aware

Why people drowns themselves on alcohol

Why people smokes despite knowing its cons

Why people puts permanent marks on their wrists

Why people takes too many pills

Why people secretly hides a rope under their beds

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This World Is Mad

#StopMislabelling (Depression)


Last night, I’ve came across a Face book post that tackles about how people use terms of mental illnesses as an adjective. (See the post I’m referring to by clicking here) There are wide varieties of mental illness both known today and stated at that post, but I will focus more about Depression since that is the things I can relate to.

Depression is a thing—an illness. Admit it or not, most people thought that depression is the same thing as worrying and/or over-thinking which is absolutely wrong. Depression as I’ve said is an illness same as when you got a high fever. It should be treated fairly and not be ignored or worse underestimated. Depression is honestly cannot be easily defined specifically & scientifically. But then, depression is beyond sadness and a feeling of emptiness and if you asked those persons who personally suffers depression, there is a huge possibility that they, themselves, doesn’t know how to explain or rather understand the cause of their pain. Some depression are caused by traumatic experiences and some just happened to be present; but regardless of those, they are both depression and it causes destruction on people who suffers.

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#StopMislabelling (Depression)